It is a sad remembrance, when I look into your eyes and touch for the first time, the depth of sincerity. I am trembling and afraid because your heart is so fragile…it’s broken like glass. If we were in another time, maybe we would have been different. Maybe we would have been meant for each other. But today, our worlds just do not cross in the ways of forever.
I have never been given this honour, this precious hope and a sacrifice on both our lives. If we were the lucky ones, this would have been magic. But now, we will never have this again.
I wonder about the people who have impressed themselves upon my life. Some have left in secret, some have faded into the deepest recesses of memory, and some are still a part of who I am but once they fly away, they leave us behind.
I never understood how moments of fire can fade to ash when we’re no longer together. Does not the flame still burn in your heart? Or do you quell it with the affections of others, and leave the sparks we have made to simmer and vanish? Perhaps this is the way people move on and fully embrace the present. I know you love me, and you know I love you. But when you leave me, it’s like our love never mattered.
Then I recall all the people I have shut down upon and left behind because of all the hurt and pain they have caused me. I am more than haunted by the supernatural when ghosts of you come gliding down my corridor. There is an unrest, an unsettling, when I call to mind the imperfection that plagued my existence. With you, everything changed. With you, I lost the most sacred parts of me.
We are heading to a new destination, a life unknown. Untouched and unscarred, I can paint my stories anew, I can bring my hope into this city of lights and wonder. These trials and tribulations of a life gone by clings to me, like shadows and figures without a home. With time and space, the burdens become lighter, like fallen feathers. And before long I will realise the liberty that was mine.
Leaving you, and all the things you mean to me, we can start life afresh and forget the fears and sadness of yesteryears. It is too long to hold onto pain like this…it is too long to hurt like you don’t know Jesus.
